For a moment, he could barely breathe, surprised by the emotions he saw reflected in her eyes. Alec knew that his family cared for him, but that was different than being wanted. He wasn't the best Shadowhunter... he wasn't the bravest or the smartest and Alec knew that would always be true. He was the protector, a role that he never begrudged, but it was a role lonely compared to his brilliant siblings.
Why would Magnus care so much about a stranger, a Shadowhunter, who she had just met? Healers showed concern for their patients but that sort of feeling was unusual. Most Downworlders hated his kind and mundanes thought nephilim were odd. Magnus showing that much concern was something unexpected that warmed his soul in ways he hadn't thought possible.
And so did her story about Peru. He knew that he shouldn't laugh over situation that had put them both at risk but he couldn't help imagining how ridiculous they both must have looked caught in a cargo of guano. Especially Ragnor who seemed to be constantly annoyed at the world. And Magnus... "Were you wearing one of those hats that annoy him?" Maybe it had been the peacock one that she'd told him about...
His humor faded as Magnus explained why Ragnor seemed to dislike him. It was something Alec understood completely. He would be just as protective of the people he cared about, especially when "Magnus, I promise that I will do everything I can to make sure no harm comes to you. If it'd make him feel better, I'll give him my oath that that's true." It would have to be carefully worded, but his intentions would be clear.
As he made that promise, the full impact of her words hit him, realizing what had happened during the battle. The fact that she'd killed demons didn't bother him. He might not have killed one until that fight, but he had no qualms about sending them back to whatever realm they came from. She'd burned them because she was worried about him. The thought was both frightening and touching.... having that much power to unleash on the world...
But she'd done it to protect him, not for malicious reasons. Most probably would think of it as something terrible, but he could only be grateful for being saved. "Thank you, Magnus. I would be dead if you hadn't destroyed them. And your crew might have been hurt too if you hadn't done it."
His voice softened as she warned him that she was dangerous, not believing that could possibly be true. "You're not trouble. You're a hero. If I'm a hero, then you must be one too." For a moment, he considered her words about people being special... That he mattered. "I don't want you to give up. You're someone who matters to me as well."
Someone that he didn't have to leave in a week if that wasn't what he wished. It pained him that his family thought he was dead, but he couldn't send them a fire message and risk the Clave finding out and assuming the worst about Magnus and her crew. Eventually, he'd find a way to get word to them. For now, he'd rest and enjoy the time he had with Magnus.
"I'm used to being dragged around by energetic people. I think I'll like it more with you than with my siblings." Crowds were something he usually avoided, but the idea of being with the Magnus and the crew, sharing a meal and music appealed to him. "I'd like to be part of that... if they don't mind having a Shadowhunter around."
Hopefully they wouldn't mind since he wanted to stay. For awhile at least. With Magnus. He wanted to get to know her and learn all the ways that she mattered to him. "I want to stay. Even if you don't show me things I haven't seen before, I want to stay."
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Date: 2013-09-02 02:05 am (UTC)From:Why would Magnus care so much about a stranger, a Shadowhunter, who she had just met? Healers showed concern for their patients but that sort of feeling was unusual. Most Downworlders hated his kind and mundanes thought nephilim were odd. Magnus showing that much concern was something unexpected that warmed his soul in ways he hadn't thought possible.
And so did her story about Peru. He knew that he shouldn't laugh over situation that had put them both at risk but he couldn't help imagining how ridiculous they both must have looked caught in a cargo of guano. Especially Ragnor who seemed to be constantly annoyed at the world. And Magnus... "Were you wearing one of those hats that annoy him?" Maybe it had been the peacock one that she'd told him about...
His humor faded as Magnus explained why Ragnor seemed to dislike him. It was something Alec understood completely. He would be just as protective of the people he cared about, especially when "Magnus, I promise that I will do everything I can to make sure no harm comes to you. If it'd make him feel better, I'll give him my oath that that's true." It would have to be carefully worded, but his intentions would be clear.
As he made that promise, the full impact of her words hit him, realizing what had happened during the battle. The fact that she'd killed demons didn't bother him. He might not have killed one until that fight, but he had no qualms about sending them back to whatever realm they came from. She'd burned them because she was worried about him. The thought was both frightening and touching.... having that much power to unleash on the world...
But she'd done it to protect him, not for malicious reasons. Most probably would think of it as something terrible, but he could only be grateful for being saved. "Thank you, Magnus. I would be dead if you hadn't destroyed them. And your crew might have been hurt too if you hadn't done it."
His voice softened as she warned him that she was dangerous, not believing that could possibly be true. "You're not trouble. You're a hero. If I'm a hero, then you must be one too." For a moment, he considered her words about people being special... That he mattered. "I don't want you to give up. You're someone who matters to me as well."
Someone that he didn't have to leave in a week if that wasn't what he wished. It pained him that his family thought he was dead, but he couldn't send them a fire message and risk the Clave finding out and assuming the worst about Magnus and her crew. Eventually, he'd find a way to get word to them. For now, he'd rest and enjoy the time he had with Magnus.
"I'm used to being dragged around by energetic people. I think I'll like it more with you than with my siblings." Crowds were something he usually avoided, but the idea of being with the Magnus and the crew, sharing a meal and music appealed to him. "I'd like to be part of that... if they don't mind having a Shadowhunter around."
Hopefully they wouldn't mind since he wanted to stay. For awhile at least. With Magnus. He wanted to get to know her and learn all the ways that she mattered to him. "I want to stay. Even if you don't show me things I haven't seen before, I want to stay."